Hannah KlemkowTogether is a different thing than me and you together or each of us alone
Increasingly I wake up and decide this is square one but then the sex I’m having is different let me be clear I’m not talking about it politically I’m done talking politically about being fucked actually I’m done talking in any way—that is not related to the fucking— about being fucked. when a poet (a woman poet) says fucking or—especially—“cock” out loud in the room she is wanting us all to feel it here feel very political. well all I’m saying is I don’t feel political I just start thinking about your cock and its feeling and both of us together with it. Me and you if we were to say it out loud together “fucking” or “cock” out loud in the room together— we sound like business partners. do I sound like an adult woman do I sound like a slut Is there really a difference between being touched nicely—or wanting to—and being listened to. Poem with oil and wine I want to be buddhist but in a way that is mostly about pleasure. Is that still buddhism. I am picturing us covered in oil an oil that is thick and rich in color like olive oil but smells sweet or pleasant like coconut oil and we are quiet. I read things very briefly about buddhism on the internet so I’m working with what I have here. We are all in a circle in candlelight and there is sweat on our faces and we are smiling wildly but our eyes are closed and maybe we are giggling. This is the kind of religion that I want and maybe I will have to invent it. We feel loose and maybe it is basically an orgy that I’m talking about. We have all fasted for a little while so it feels warm and strange and pleasurable. The emptiness like you still don’t want to eat anything and you feel so proud. Maybe some herbal tea, or wine. It’s this whole thing— the way I imagine my life this way. I want an apartment where there is one main room with some soft cushions like a bean bag and some pillows on the floor and a wonderful rug and some plants but everything is very low and cozy and asking you to have sex. After that, I can make other decisions Like going elsewhere, somewhere with community and parties and Is buddhism ultimately about pleasure, I think I could be naturally buddhist if that is the case I love to lie in bed for long hours and eat and moisturize and stand in steamy showers and have deep stretches and drink hot or boozy beverages and come many times, show off my own softness and beauty. I like to read and hear juicy dirty sexy things. I like the sky at its most velvety. A morning blue or an afternoon lavender or a high summer magenta over trees and a small downtown skyline where everyone is laughing and there is refreshing bubbly beverages and sparkly lighting and maybe a plant with large waxy leaves to touch. I mean this to be about us but feminine, like if we were making a new language we would use the feminine the for it. In the end if the world is over here's what we’ll do We will camp somewhere by a really juicy— a quality river and I’ll touch your arm gently and call it universal healthcare I’ll pluck a couple dandelions from the ground near our feet and lay them in front of a rabbit and call it taxing the rich |